The only way to help people truly understand what I’m saying is through allegory, as with the Bible. I feel it is purposely written through allegory at certain points; because of this, it isn’t easier for us to truly grasp, but once we do grasp it through faith and understanding, it is much more potent this way.
If I told you not to lie in regret and move forward in life, most would understand and hear it. But if I were to say, ‘Don’t let yesterday’s battle be today’s war,’ and manage to illustrate that in a story through allegory, it’s more potent for us to see it this way by having the determination and faith to be able to one day understand the meaning of the allegory. It makes the words, and the faith in them, more powerful.
In the deepest part of my heart, I still believe this is just a story, that it is all coincidence from people wanting to see more. I can’t deny the many things various people have pointed out to me in person, the same way you did about a month ago, and I can’t deny the logic of it on my own, no matter what I try. When I do let go of that last shred of disbelief in my heart and trust entirely, I feel as though a feeling of omnipotence dominates my conscience. Not that I know everything, but that something does. I can recognize it recognizing me, having a strong faith. This goes back to the previous paragraph about determination and faith.
That said, I need to explain the context of my understanding so we can look through the same lens as I move forward in these explanations and the story.
If we go with the idea that this is all natural, with no divine influence, then it is simple and needs no further thought. We evolved, and now here we are: no will of god, no evil, just humanity living and dying.
However, if there is something divine, what would it be, what would it look like, and how would any of it even work?
The truth is, I don’t exactly know; I can only use logic to try to guess the answers.
I’ll start by laying this foundation:
Nature and Man: For now, I want to separate these and explain my opinion.
Nature is morally neutral. When I say nature, I mean any living thing other than humans, whether we share the Earth with it or find it outside of it. When I say morally neutral, I’m referring to the aspect of operating without the complexity of our morality (Side of Good/Evil)
(I will keep these brief, but I’ll omit a lot of information so this doesn’t get too long. [Side note: Argument of prosocial evolution and virtue of humanity. A vampire bat will share its food with others, but that doesn’t equate to our virtue of altruism.])
Man, as human beings, is separate in that we have a pull from both sides of good and evil in our minds that we call ‘morality’. Nature’s essence is at our foundation because we eat, sleep, and bleed too, just like them. The difference is what is on top of that foundation, and that is what makes us what we are.
The basis of religion, in my opinion, is to facilitate good in the world; at least that’s what I feel the point is: God’s Will prompting us to do good.
We as human beings are inseparable from sin; we have only a varying percentage of God’s Will in us, or we have all of God’s Will in us, but at a varying rate over time. With that in mind, the complete Will of God (where this would have to be from) is established and whole. If we jump the chain and look at the end of it, God’s Will would have 100% its own Will; otherwise, we wouldn’t be looking at what I’m talking about. This force I’m referencing is the furthest up the chain, and it’s where all Good in our existence would be sourced.
For example, let’s look at God’s Will as 1.0 and you and I as 0.01. The in-between numbers are where I would place everything that serves God’s Will by facilitating its force of good. 1.0 being 100% God’s Will, .01 being 1% God’s Will.
The closest thing to God I would believe exists as tangible is 99.99% God’s Will or 0.99. (I can explain this further later, but I believe God’s Will [1.0] and what we would see as God [0.99] are separate.)
The facilitation of good is God’s Will and Heaven’s system. If you and I have a part of God’s Will at .01, at .5 there would have to be the same system, just more of God’s Will affecting it or at a higher rate. This is what I would consider angels: servants of God’s Will, far beyond our understanding and depth.
(These numbers are just figures to help explain; they are not accurate)
If there is a .5, there’s a .6, a .7, a .3, and many more variations of Angels between our world and theirs, and they would have identities and hierarchy.
(Identity, as in a named angel with a purpose. I haven’t read the Bible, but I know angels have names and a purpose. I know they can have less than 1.0; otherwise, an angel like Satan couldn’t exist.)
In this story, sin can exist in Heaven, and because of that, the story includes systems to remove it. These angels belong in the category of Order
The angels who bring about the systems that facilitate good in Heaven fall under the category of Law.
In the story I’m going to tell, the highest angels of Law are called Thrones.
This is where I can start the story of a character named Garrick.
At the very height of Law in Heaven sit the three Thrones. The first is the Throne of Truth, the second the Throne of Peace, and the third the Throne of Faith. These figures in the story are so close to God’s Will that they take no form.
Just as we interpret God as a force in our minds rather than something tangible, the same applies to the Thrones in Heaven, just at an even higher level.
Garrick is the second Throne of Peace and the divine warden of Heaven’s angels and souls. He deals with souls like us who cannot fully grasp God’s Will as he can. He mainly guides them in the right direction, but they inevitably fail him, as his understanding is far beyond their reach. Even so, he lends them an ear and hears the woes and pleas of these souls, for he loves and has compassion for them.
(To clarify about a Throne: they are not meant to hold such love and compassion for these souls; this is Garrick’s growth. A Throne’s purpose is to be as robotic as possible, and Garrick is starting to stray from that.)
His main objective is peace in Heaven and peace in the world it affects. He exists as the lawmaker and watches us personally. It’s in his very being to be part of our minds and to want us to see the good he is part of, God’s Will.
This was his beginning, and what happened to him changed their world and gave birth to a new one.
As he gets closer and closer to his angels, he begins to hear them well. Their thoughts begin to sway his, and the only real difference is their temptation. Garrick starts to think less like an unseen Throne and more like something real, something finite, like a person, a man. Garrick takes form in Heaven to be closer to those he cares for.
He became more human, literally and figuratively, and less like a Throne. This magnetism that pulled him from the realm of infinity toward us wasn’t something he developed on purpose; just like his angels, he became a victim of this attraction. This began his transformation from something impervious and infinite to something finite and flawed.
This, in turn, leads him to make the very human mistake of wanting to change God’s Will to his own.
This changes him even further, toward desire. This is what makes him fall even further; his desire is so great that he no longer looks upward to God’s will (1.0) but into the satiation below (-1.0).
This is the only way he feels he can achieve peace and maintain his goal. He succumbs to desire.
This was the beginning of his scheme and the creation of Hell.
There’s much more, but this is a pretty important character, central to the web of everything I’ve discovered, and I’ll keep explaining as I reread and rewrite my entire database of writings. If there are any questions or concerns, please send them to me. I would like to know what you think and would love to answer any questions that come up.
Final note: I’ve never read the Bible. Any and all correlation to it is entirely accidental and unintentional.